Same ol same ol, it has been two weeks. Here I am, sitting on the couch of this rented condominium of mine. What a luxurious life I’m living, renting a condominium that costs me RM245 a month inclusive of utility bills. What am I up to? Nothing much, except for two coursework next week and two assignments due in 3 weeks. Chilling and watching the news on the couch, waiting to go home. Then I started thinking, as an adult. Hah, just kidding. I’m only 18. Thinking like an adult? I’m far away from the adult life or so I think. I’m just watching the news, trying to understand why are the news getting more and more absurd. Without fail, there’s at least 2 rape cases every week. I should probably stop understanding them because it is just a waste of time.

I was thinking about life, about how hard it can be. I enjoy living this life. Let me tell you my daily routine. I wake up, go to college, come home and that’s it. Of course, I take my meals but I shall not explain all of it here. My college life, is terrible. It took me a year to realize it. I can say I lead a miserable life. A frugal life I lead. It is my choice. No one knows how I feel or that’s what I think at least. Of course, I know a few people should live more or less the same way I do. Seeing my parents aging week by week and being the only son who is still studying, I have no choice but to live a frugal life. I am not the kind of son who would spend all my parents’ money. I don’t feel  good when I overspent. Every time I spur myself with branded items, I use my savings (yes, from parents but no directly!) and my salary. Let’s not talk about me being brand conscious because that’s how I choose to live my life (yes, another stupid choice as you’d say) and it would probably take one day for me to explain to you all the reasons.

I don’t go to karaoke sessions with my classmates, no trips, no good food sessions (hawker stall most of the time as it is cheap and good), no pool (seldom), no movies and so on. Yes, it is that sad. I can’t bear the thought of spending my parents hard earned money on doing something I think it isn’t worth it. I only spend my money whenever I think it is worth it just to maximize my satisfaction and only certain people are worth spending with. That’s just me. You can say I’m being cheap and I won’t mind because that is the truth. I know I should be finding a part time job and spend my savings in a better life instead. Nah, not true because I get enough allowance every month. Enough for me to live this frugal life. I also have the choice to ask for more money (might be sounded by my parents) but I feel guilty. Sunk costs. I bought a RM50 belt that wasn’t my size. That’s sunk cost and I regretted it deeply but it already happened and I just let it go. Oh, here comes my roommate. He just got back from college. I don’t know what’s wrong but I keep hearing explosions in the sky song playing in my head. I should also be studying but I decided I need to rest, to chillax. Why am I blogging about my boring frugal life, as you might be wondering.

I do it because I don’t want people to think that I am arrogant for rejecting to hang out with them (once or twice only la). I always say I’m poor because that is true. Okay la, that’s false. I have money with me all the time and I just don’t want to spend. I even have a budget now, in order to save my money. I don’t spend wisely but I don’t spend stupidly either or sillily. LOLOL. There is no such word, I’m just being random. It has been so long since I last travelled. I have no choice, I can’t spend too much. Sighs. I need to travel, need to get away from this place. Since last year I said this and nothing has been done. Oh well, life sucks for me but I can live with it. I forgotten that quite often I eat bread as meals. 3 piece of bread and a cup of Milo or instant noodles with a cup of Milo. People say Gadenia, planta and peanut butter are unhealthy but it is not like I can afford expensive ones. I know it is not worth it to risk my life with those cheap/unhealthy meals but it won’t last. I definitely hope it won’t. So today, you get to know more about me. I’m not done with how I feel about my parents but I think there’s enough reading material today. I wonder how can I bring my English to a higher level, reading does not seem to cut it.

I'm contemplating on whether should I call and negotiate with the owner of the condo. And talk about miserable college life, I don't have the album 'College Life' in facebook.